By August the Thursday train had become something Priya no longer had to plan for. It simply arrived in her week the way Monday’s status meeting arrived, or the way Anaya’s Wednesday dance class arrived, fixed and expected and requiring nothing from her except showing up.
Except it did require something from her. She had started, without quite admitting it to herself, choosing what to wear on Thursday mornings with slightly more attention than the other four days.
Nothing dramatic.
She told herself it was because Thursday was the day she saw the Pune client, a fussy man named Deshpande who ran a packaging distribution company and seemed to judge competence partly on how put together a person looked.
That was the story she told herself in the mirror, ironing a collar she would otherwise have left creased.
The truth was smaller and more embarrassing than that, and she avoided looking directly at it the way you avoid looking directly at the sun.
Deshpande’s office sat on the third floor of a building near Shivajinagar that smelled permanently of fresh cardboard and machine oil, and their meetings never lasted less than ninety minutes even when the agenda could have been settled in twenty.
He liked to talk about his son’s engineering college applications, about the state of Indian manufacturing, about anything at all before circling back to the actual business of packaging contracts.
Priya had learned to sit through these digressions with practiced patience, nodding at the right intervals, smiling at the right time and at the right joke, because Deshpande’s account was worth more to her numbers than any three other clients combined.
But lately she found herself glancing at her watch during his monologues in a way she hadn’t before, counting down not to the end of the workday but to the platform, to the 9:47, to a conversation that asked nothing of her, atleast nothing until now.
Aditya was already in his seat when she boarded that first Thursday in Agust, a different book this time, something with a plain grey cover and no title she could make out from across the aisle.
He looked up before she had even properly sat down, like he had been watching the doors.
“Industrial packaging,” he said again, which had become something like a private joke between them, a small ritual greeting that meant nothing to anyone else in the coach and everything to the two of them.
“Comic Sans,” she answered, and he laughed the way he always laughed, short and surprised, like her humor kept catching him off guard even though this was now their third week of exchanging exactly this kind of banter.
The conversations had grown longer with each Thursday. What had started as small talk about rain and work had, over six weeks, stretched into something with actual shape and weight.
She learned that Aditya had grown up in Nashik, the only child of a schoolteacher father and a mother who ran a small tailoring business out of their home.
He had wanted to study fine arts, had fought his father for two years to be allowed to do it, had eventually compromised on a design degree that satisfied nobody completely but at least paid the bills.
He had been engaged once, two years ago, to a woman named Ritu who had eventually decided that a freelance designer’s income and a freelance designer’s uncertain hours were not the future she wanted. He talked about it without bitterness, the way you talk about weather that has already passed.
She told him things too, more than she meant to. About Anaya’s fear of the dark that no nightlight seemed to fix. About her own mother, who had died four years ago and whose absence she still felt most sharply in strange, unpredictable moments, like seeing a woman of a certain age at a bus stop and feeling her chest tighten for no reason.
She told him about the low, persistent hum of feeling unnecessary at home, a feeling she had never said out loud to anyone, not her sister, not her closest friend from college, not even in the privacy of her own head in quite these words.
“Do you feel unnecessary,” Aditya asked one Thursday in September, “or do you feel unseen? Because those aren’t the same thing.”
The question startled her enough that she didn’t answer right away. The train rattled through the dark somewhere past Karjat, the window beside her showing nothing but her own reflection and the blurred lights of a passing signal box.
“Unseen,” she said finally. “I think I’m very necessary. Nobody in that house could function without me. I do everything that keeps that flat running. I’m just not seen doing any of it.”
“That sounds exhausting.”
“It is. But it’s also just my life right now. It’s also just every day. You stop noticing the exhaustion the way you stop noticing traffic noise.”
He was quiet for a moment, turning that grey covered book over in his hands without opening it. “I notice you,” he said, and then, as if worried the words had come out heavier than he intended, added quickly, “on the train, I mean. I notice when you’re tired versus when you’re just quiet.”
She did not know what to do with that sentence, so she let it sit between them, unanswered, the way you let a held door stay open a moment longer than necessary.
By late September, the pattern of their Thursdays had become fixed in a way that unsettled her slightly when she thought about it directly, which she tried not to do too often.
She began arriving at the station a few minutes earlier than she needed to, not because the extra minutes served any purpose, but because standing on the platform with nothing to do felt easier than sitting at her desk pretending to finish an email while watching the clock.
One Thursday, walking toward her usual coach, she found herself scanning the platform for him before she had even reached the door, and the small flare of relief she felt on spotting his familiar shape near the pillar, earphones in, book already out, embarrassed her more than she wanted to admit.
She was a married woman looking for a man on a train platform the way a teenager looks for a crush in a school corridor, and the recognition of that fact sat uncomfortably in her chest the whole ride to Pune.
She almost changed compartments once. It was a Tuesday, not even the day she usually saw him, an unplanned trip because Deshpande had moved a meeting up and she’d had to take an earlier connection than usual. She stood on the platform for the 6:15 instead of the 9:47, and for a strange, disorienting moment she considered walking to a different door entirely, choosing a coach where she wouldn’t have to explain to herself why she felt the absence of a man she barely knew.
She got on her usual coach anyway. He wasn’t there, of course, wrong train, wrong day, and she spent the whole two hours staring out the window feeling ridiculous and unmoored in a way she couldn’t fully name, missing a presence that had no business being missed.
That was the week she understood, quietly and without any dramatic realization, that something in her had shifted.
She was not simply enjoying a pleasant weekly conversation with a stranger anymore. She was rearranging small pieces of her attention around a person who was not her man, and doing it so gradually that she had barely noticed the rearranging until it was already done.
At home that week, Rohan asked her, almost in passing, whether everything was alright. He was scrolling through something on his phone at the dining table while Anaya finished her dinner, not really looking at Priya when he asked, the question tossed out the way you toss out a question you don’t expect to require a real answer.
“I’m fine,” she said. “Just tired. Work’s been a lot.”
“You’ve seemed distracted,” he said, still not looking up. “Distant, maybe.”
“I said I’m fine, Rohan.”
He nodded, accepted it, went back to his phone. It was, she thought later, exactly the kind of exchange that defined their marriage now. A question asked without real curiosity, answered without real honesty, both of them satisfied with the transaction because neither of them wanted to do the harder work of actually looking at each other.
Anaya, six years old and far more perceptive than either of her parents gave her credit for, looked up from her plate and said, “Mumma, why do you smile more on Thursdays?”
The question landed like something physical, a small stone dropped into still water.
Priya laughed it off, said something about Thursdays being the day before Friday, the almost-weekend, and Anaya seemed satisfied enough with that explanation to go back to her dinner.
But the question stayed with Priya long after Anaya had been put to bed, long after Rohan had gone quiet over his laptop in the next room, long after the flat had settled into its usual late night silence.
She did smile more on Thursdays. She had not realized it was visible enough for a six-year-old to notice.
The following Thursday, on the train, she told Aditya about the question, expecting him to laugh, or to say something light to defuse the small guilt sitting in her chest. Instead he was quiet for a while, watching the dark fields blur past the window.
“Does it scare you,” he asked eventually, “that she noticed?”
“Terrifies me,” Priya said, and was surprised by how easily the true word came out, here, in this seat, across from this man, in a way it never seemed to come out anywhere else in her life.
He didn’t offer reassurance. He didn’t tell her it was nothing, or that children notice everything and mean nothing by it, or any of the small comforting lies she might have expected.
He just nodded, like her fear made sense to him, like he understood exactly what it cost to be seen smiling more on the one day of the week that belonged to someone other than her family.
“For what it’s worth,” he said finally, “I look forward to Thursdays more than I’ve looked forward to anything in a long time. I don’t know what to do with that information. I’m not asking you to know what to do with it either. I just wanted to say it out loud once.”
She looked at him then, really looked, in a way she had been carefully avoiding for six or whatever weeks, and understood that whatever this was, whatever careful, deniable thing they had built between two train stations, it had already stopped being nothing.
It had stopped being nothing weeks ago, and she had simply been too afraid to name it.
The train pulled into Pune fifteen minutes late that night. Neither of them mentioned or worried about the time.
They walked toward the exit together in a silence that felt fuller than most of their conversations, and at the barrier, where their paths would usually split without ceremony, Aditya hesitated for just a second before raising a hand in an ordinary goodbye, nothing more, though something in his eyes suggested he had considered saying more and decided against it.
Priya walked to her auto with that unfinished second sitting in her chest the whole ride back to the hotel, turning it over the way you turn over a coin you’re not sure is real.











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